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Happy Earth Day 🌱 Mmm, spring has sprung. Sp

Happy Earth Day 🌱

Mmm, spring has sprung.
Spring IS sprung.
Spring is… springing? 😃

Love fills the air with the soundtrack of birdsong, seeking a mate, while pops of color splatter the lush green forests in bursts of flower blossoms.

The rebirth of the season coincides with the rebirth of my new life in a new part of the world, and for better and worse, is synchronised with coming out of a bad cold (or something).

The changing of seasons, dips in health, moving location - these things and many more offer ample opportunities to pause and look at where your life is and ask - is this the direction I want to be heading?

When we are caught in loops of activity and busyness and achievement, life risks becoming automated. It becomes “this is just the way life is.” We may get caught up without the awareness that perhaps we may want
#something different, something better.

As I’ve been in this paused limbo of illness, I’ve appreciated it. Life forced me to pause because I wasn’t doing so myself.

In this space of stillness, my heart grew fonder of a relationship that’s been growing the last few months.

The space of stillness also has brought the question of what I want to do with my time, energy, and life. The answer showed up very stubbornly as:

All I want to do is be naked and cook all the time. It isn’t new information but the message is screaming at me louder than ever - to listen and to remove the distractions that pull me from that focus.

And with that has come the question of rebirthing my presence online. How do I want to show up on social media, what is the intention behind what I share, and what level of vulnerability am I willing to expose?

I don’t have all the answers yet, but more clarity continues to reveal itself. What I do know is that holding standards of perfectionism aren’t moving mountains. A perfectly curated grid on my feed isn’t going to be what changes anyone’s life.

More questions than answers for now, but half the power is in asking the right questions.

📸 still from a video diving into icy lakes last spring, with an anonymous collaborator
💃🏼 @thebeastxgoddess in @acnestudios

#icediving

Love. I am slowly headed in the direction of falli

Love. I am slowly headed in the direction of falling in love. It feels inevitable, and yet I question the timeline. The question is only a whisper, and when I tune in deeper to my heart, I feel it glowing - an overarching feeling of being loving.

But how do you know when you’re “in” love? There are so many different layers of love leading up to that full immersion.

I ask myself, how long do you have to know someone before you can love them? You know, the full depth rather than a facade that might be easy to hold for small pockets of time.

Still, my heart tells me it doesn’t matter. Love defies logic. It is not slave to mathematics, time, and calculation. When you know, you know.

All of those times in the past steeped in not knowing, in waiting for the “right” moment, well - they were simply not right, nor were they pure.

Now, there is no waiting. There is no push and pull. There is no comparison of anything that came before this. We are starting from a blank slate, where there is no concept of time outside the window of right here and right now.

Is it that there is no concept of time, or perhaps that our time together is not linear? Days feel like a lifetime, and there is an unspoken knowing nestled at the base of my heart. An unspoken understanding woven into the roots of my soul.

We stand on a bridge of trust that has been effortless to connect and maintain - as if we both began building across the river of life years ago, and somehow against an infinite number of odds, aligned our compass to the exact degrees to perfectly line up.

Love. Anything but linear.

📷 self portrait amongst the rhododendron in Stockholm, Sweden. Prints finally available for sale. 💕

✏️ journaling from 16 February.

#bellinghamwa #boudoirphoto #fallinginlovewithyou #selflove #mirrorwork #sonyalphafemale

Let’s talk about birth control. 👏🏻 I kno

September has come, but I’m pretty sure last wee

September has come, but I’m pretty sure last week was January. Am I the only one experiencing this time warp? And yet, winter is once again around the corner…

It’s still sunny and in the 70s on the Portuguese coast, but my mind is being pulled forward to changing leaves, frozen waters, and crisp air that nips at bare cheeks.

This year, I’ve learned the importance of traveling with the seasons.

For the first time, I experienced March-May in Scandinavia, and with it I experienced the magic of ice floes for the very first time. I knew that, moving forward, this needed to be my compass to create from as the earth began to groan, expand, and wake up from a sleepy winter.

I experienced the trees bursting into the deepest shades of so many greens, saturating my vision in the color of love. I watched through my windows as splashes of color burst through the emerald backdrops.

And as I left for Portugal, I learned that summer is for surfing.

Now, as I come up to 3 months testing new waters (literally) down south, I find myself pulled to the changing of autumn leaves.

Just like the contrast between the seasons, I feel pulled between extremes and I find myself feeling that I must choose one or the other.

Portugal or Sweden?

But now, my limitations of what is possible are being lifted and questioned and challenged. What if… I don’t have to choose one or the other? What if, instead, I can have both?

Choosing one or the other comes from a place of scarcity. A believe that we can’t have it all. But why not?

It’s time to upgrade my programming, deconstruct the societal conditioning, and be the woman who says yes to having it all.

It’s time.

📸 collaboration with an anonymous friend in Sweden during the spring. 🥰

One of the shoots where I’ve been challenged most. Two hours of prep for about 20 seconds of shooting.

What limiting beliefs are you ready to let go of? 👇🏻

#visitstockholm #sonyalphafemale #skandinavisk

It was never meant to be perfect. None of it. Ev

It was never meant to be perfect.

None of it. Ever.

I had an NFT collector look over my work a few weeks ago, and they began to pick apart all of the technicalities that weren’t perfect.

A comparison to the perfection found in studio advertising shots.

Perfection was never the goal. If you’re here for perfect, you’re in the wrong place.

I explained that I am taking all of these photos on my own. It’s me, my remote, and a tripod.

It’s me, Mother Nature, and organic playful movement.

He asked - couldn’t I ask someone to help? To come in and direct and create something more perfect?

My background is in advertising photography. Give me an assignment that requires perfection and I will execute it. I can pick apart imperfections all day - technical, aesthetic, composition, lighting, you name it.

But that’s not what this is about.

He didn’t get it. None of this has been about perfection. It isn’t about the end goal of a beautifully flawless image.

It’s about the time I spend alone in nature, nurturing the relationship that I have with my heart and my body.

Beautifully imperfect art is a byproduct of a spiritual process.

To bring someone else in and strive for perfection erases where all of this came from.

Bookings available for an indefinite period of time in Portugal. Art prints also available! Message me to book and buy. 🤩

#embodimentcoach #sonyalphafemale #ericeiralovers #ericeirasurf #algarveportugal

Shibari yoga experiment, Take 2. #shibari #yogaf

Shibari yoga experiment,
Take 2.

#shibari #yogaflow #ropeart

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